dont hav mood now…..feel really happen….but dont know what make me moodless n tension….i try to study for this friday test….but i cant concentrate…i dont know what i’m doing….

i suddenly lost my direction…..now i’m at no where….lately….didnt really feel wanna talk….so easily feel tired n sleepy….now i’m not energetic anymore….just like some useless ppl who always do nothing except eat n sleep…

i hope i can gain back myself soon…i hate this moment..i hate when i always r in depress….i feel so tension…..this semester…all the dubject is difficult…..i dont know whether i can face it or not….

frens always ask me to relax n dont give myself too much pressure…but….as u all know…say is much more easier than do….i just cant relax….i also dont wanna give myself pressure…but the pressure come by itself….everyone thought i’m doing well…..but actually…i’m not….just no one know it..

everytime when i say i dont know how to do something or i feel tension…sure no one believe me…..i wonder what make them feel that i’m ok….mayb cos i wont show it out among frens….i will become another person when i’m home….when i’m outside….i admit that i do look like a happy-go-lucky gal….but inside….i’m sure about that….

sometimes really worry about myself….cos my health is quite bad….i cant b tension if not….my thyroid will become more serious….

saufun…plz gain back urself as soon as possible….u r the best!…u sure can manage to handle everything….stop worrying for nothing….

saufun…i love u…

p/s: plz pray hard n wish that i will b ok soon….love n miss u guys…